Your mother is crazy

One night my daughter cried to me and said “I don’t like what USIM people said to you”

She told me that Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali said to her “Your mother is crazy”

This guy is too much, he made my life difficult in USIM just because I rejected him.

Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali, You are a sick person injuring my daughter’s emotion by condemning me.

Have  you no compassion to children? She was just 9 years old!!!

She was really disturbed by what you said to her.

You go and f*ck yourself you son of a b*tch!!!!!!!!!!

Get a life, you Motherf*cker!!!!!!!

(Get a fartwa for injuring my child’s emotion, son of a b*tch)

USIM Graduate and Karaoke

I met a USIM SMSU (Sarjana Muda Syariah dan Undang-undang) graduate at a shopping mall recently

He was with his boyfriend

He did not look like a normal hot blooded male, he looked like a homosexual

He told me that he just finished his karaoke

He is doing his Masters at IIUM

He asked me whether I am practising?

I said no

He said “why not? Why don’t you practise in your  father’s law firm?”

So I said to him “I never told you my dad had a law firm”

And then he started to lose confidence, excused himself by saying he had to pick up his car which he sent for service….

Hmmm Hmmmm

After he left I asked my  13 year old daughter, “Do you want to go for karaoke?”

She replied “Haram”

(Me love to sing, me “B” Flat soprano, me condemned by USIM students because I asked them to sing in a USIM event)

Well, well, well……………

Kena ada fartwa (fatwa) ni on “Karaoke”

What happened to me post-USIM?

I moved back into the millionaire’s house

No job no money, right

After the honeymoon period the abuse recurred

Abusers never change

The millionaire beat my son using a plastic chair until the chair broke

There was much undermining of my authority as a mother (like  before)

I was beaten up by the millionaire’s abusive son

I lodged another police report

MMU settled with me, so I had cash with me

What did I do with the cash?

I left that “hell house of abuse” with my children

I can only afford a shack with cemented floor

From marbled floor to cemented floor

From RM2 million bungalow to RM30,000 shack

My daughter could not take it

Living with an impoverished abused loser called mom

She took a brick and aimed at me

I called out Allah’s name and she dropped the brick

My son took a knife and wanted to kill me

He pulled down the bookshelf  behind me

The bookshelf nearly hit me but Allah helped me

Allah saved me

That was not the end of our suffering

I fell sick during Ramadhan

I refused to go to the hospital

I lost hope

I did not care anymore

There was another abused woman who cried when she saw me dying

“Ampunkanlah dosa aku, pi lah hospital.Janganlah macam ni”

She cried so hard which made me think “She cared about me more than I care about myself”

An abusive woman looked at me and cried

She said to me “Your children need you”

I said to her “You don’t love me” and I turned my head away

I was getting weaker, my son called his uncle and said “Mommy is dying”

I agreed to go to the hospital because the abused woman kept on  crying, begging me to go to the hospital

When I was at the hospital, I heard my son said that he wanted to go and pray so that Allah would prolong my life

I started thinking while in the ICU, What if I die now? I can no longer raise my children, I can no longer see them grow. I regret dying now as I can no longer take care of them.

Allah made me live, Allah gave me the second chance to raise my children

So long that I am alive I will make sure that they do not lose hope

I will make sure that they love Allah the way I love Allah

Their abused mother

Who defended them despite much suffering

Alhamdulillah Syukur Kepada Allah Subhana Wa Taala

This is not a tragedy

This is a story of  a strong woman who relied on Allah while facing much adversity

Yes I lost hope but Allah gave me a second chance

I am the phoenix that rose from the ashes

You (Abdul Samat Musa, Muhammad Muda, Abdul Shukur Husin) cannot destroy me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Muhammad Muda the Big Bully

When I questioned Muhammad Muda ”Why does the university offer the subject in English when the students are not proficient?” (so ambitious, bodoh mereput tak sedar diri!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yang tahu pun asyik nak hina aku jadi janda!!!!Mentaliti Melayu yang suka menjatuhkan orang)

He retorted by saying “You have no right to ask that question!”

So I said to him “I am not going to lower my standards to please you!”

He started berating me, (You are a failure…..etc) I stood up, headed to the door and shocked him when I said to him  calmly ,  ”You give me your official letter asking me to leave this university.”

You see, I am used to bullies. Before I joined MMU and USIM, I stood up against a millionaire who beat me up in front of my children and put his foot on my chest to demean me. This millionaire said to me “You get out of my house and leave your children with me”. This millionare told the police that I am crazy when I lodged a police report against him. This millonaire beat me up  6 times from 2000-2006. His physical abuses are pulling my hair, punching my face, strangling me, banging my head on the cupboard and putting his foot on my chest. So standing up against Muhammad Muda, Abdul Samat Musa, Ghauth Jasmon or Goh Pek Chen is nothing to me. I am not afraid of powerful abusive men or women, I will never kowtow to them, they will get their dues in the hereafter!! Alhamdulillah Allah gives me the strength to face these bullies. (I am not great compared to Bilal Bin Rabah, Sumayyah, Masyitah, Asiah)……My suffering is miniscule compared to theirs…..Sikit aje….Biarlah sembah pada Allah daripada tunduk kepada Penipu!!!!!!

The Fasiq who made me cry (It’s an achievement for him as I am a strong woman)

Why do I go against Haji Abdul Samat Musa?

That is not the right question

The right question is “Why do I refuse to manipulate marks?”

If I do so in order to please Haji Abdul Samat Musa, Goh Pok Chen, I commit injustice towards myself. I will feel guilty towards Allah Subhana Wa Taala and my ibadat (solat) would be affected. I don’t think I can face Allah with clean hands and clear conscience.

Allah is more important than any mortals be it superiors, boyfriends etc……

I said to Haji Abdul Samat Musa

“If I pass the students who fail can you defend me when we face Allah Subhana Wa Taala? Can you guarantee that Allah Subhana Wa Taala will forgive me for cheating?”

Abdul Samat Musa could not look at me in the eye but he said “That is not cheating. Puan berada dalam satu organisasi dan saya adalah ketua organisasi ini. Puan harus akur dengan arahan saya.”

I also said to him in our final meeting “You can’t accept the fact that your students are weak”

And then he replied “There are your students also”

I also got emotional and cried by saying “I thought you were orang beriman”

He was shocked to see me cry so he said to me “This meeting is over”

Mid Semester Exam:32 Passed 82 Failed: Remedial Measures Taken

— On Sun, 6/1/08, Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>wrote:

From: Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my> Subject: Fwd: List of mid sem Failures & remedial measure To: “yasminnorhazleena@yahoo.com” <yasminnorhazleena@yahoo.com> Date: Sunday, June 1, 2008, 3:53 PM

—–Original Message—– From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my> To: “Md Yunus Abd. Aziz” <yunus@usim.edu.my>, yunus71@yahoo.com Cc: “Prof Dr. Hj. Abdul Samat Musa” <samat@usim.edu.my>,”Norhafida bt Mhd Izani” <su.fsu@usim.edu.my> Date: Sat, 15 Mar 2008 13:51:05 +0800 Subject: List of mid sem Failures & remedial measure

Askm Ustaz Yunus

Pursuant to our meeting last Friday pls find attached the Mid Semester marks of SMFF students, whereby there are  32 passes and 82 failures. As a remedial/damage control measure, I had conducted an extra class & will continue to conduct extra classes.

Pls also be informed that the first 2 questions were easy & I have discussed the third question in tutorial.Pls find attached the mid sem questions.

Kindly be informed.

official letter to leave the university

—–Original Message—–

From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” yasminbahari@usim.edu.my

To: “tnc.hea@usim.edu.my Mailing List” tnc.hea@usim.edu.my

Cc: “nc@usim.edu.my Mailing List” <nc@usim.edu.my>,”Rodhiyah Ali” su.tncHea@usim.edu.my

Date: Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:13:23 +0800

Subject: Fwd: an official letter from your goodself asking me to leave the university

Assalamualaikum Dato

As I requested from your goodself at the end of our meeting today, kindly issue to me an official letter from your goodself asking me to leave the university as you said to me yourself in the meeting that I am a failure and not suitable for the university.

In our meeting you shouted to me the following :

1. You are a failure.Your effort goes down the drain because your students fail . The government can spend a lot of money training but it’s no use if the students fail.

2. You are not suitable for our university. You are at the wrong place. Our university rates our students based on their development.

3. You should leave our university.

4. Can your students understand your teaching as a majority of them failed!

5. What do you think of our students? You look down at our students!

I take affront to your shouting and insults.

Please be informed.

—–Original Message—– From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my> To: “tnc.hea@usim.edu.my Mailing List” <tnc.hea@usim.edu.my> Cc: “Rodhiyah Ali” <su.tncHea@usim.edu.my>,”nc@usim.edu.my Mailing List” <nc@usim.edu.my> Date: Thu, 19 Jun 2008 15:11:56 +0800 Subject:

Assalamualaikum Dato

As I requested from your goodself at the end of our meeting today, kindly issue to me an official letter from your goodself asking me to leave the university as you said to me yourself in the meeting that I am a failure and not suitable for the university.

In our meeting you shouted to me the following :

1. You are a failure.Your effort goes down the drain because your students fail . The government can spend a lot of money training but it’s no use if the students fail.

2. You are not suitable for our university. You are at the wrong place. Our university rates our students based on their development.

3. You should leave our university.

4. Can your students understand your teaching as a majority of them failed!

5. What do you think of our students? You look down at our students!

I take affront to your shouting and insults.

Please be informed.

disrespect of teaching hours

—–Original Message—–
From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>
To: “Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” <mnizam@usim.edu.my>
Cc: “nc@usim.edu.my Mailing List” <nc@usim.edu.my>
Date: Tue, 02 Dec 2008 10:31:02 +0800
Subject: Relevant Documents Fwd: Re: Visit to KDN

 

En Muhammmad Nizam I am not satisfied with your explanation and FLIMSY EXCUSE THAT ‘The date that we arranged is not solely mine or the students’. Its agreed upon the confirmation of the KPDN HEP’. Moreover you passed the buck to your student and the student passed the buck to you.

I had requested the documents from you on 29 Sep 2008 but until today I have not received the relevant documents. Please provide to me as soon as possible all the relevant documents.

I have resigned from this university and my last day will be 18.12.08. One of the persons who had made my life miserable in this university is yourself, you have achieved your objective to force me to resign. Please have the decency and honesty to provide to me the relevant documents.

 

—–Original Message—–
From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>
To: “Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” <mnizam@usim.edu.my>
Cc: “nc@usim.edu.my Mailing List” <nc@usim.edu.my>
Date: Mon, 29 Sep 2008 15:10:07 +0800
Subject: Re: Visit to KDN

En Muhammmad Nizam

Correction, I was not informed by the students that there was a visit. I am not satisfied with your explanation and FLIMSY EXCUSE THAT ‘The date that we arranged is not solely mine or the students’. Its agreed upon the confirmation of the KPDN HEP’. Moreover you passed the buck to your student and the student passed the buck to you.

Please provide to me as soon as possible all the relevant documents.

—–Original Message—–
From: “Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” <mnizam@usim.edu.my>
To: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>, “Prof. Dato’ Dr. Muhamad Muda” <mmuda@usim.edu.my>, “Prof Dr. Hj. Abdul Samat Musa” <samat@usim.edu.my>, “Izawati binti Wook” <izawati@usim.edu.my>
Date: Tue, 26 Aug 2008 11:48:19 +0800
Subject: Re: Visit to KDN

Correction: Consumer Law (Pn Izawati) -You can ask her personally.

MUHAMMAD NIZAM AWANG @ ALI

 

Faculty of Syariah & Law

 

 

Islamic Science University of Malaysia

 

 

Tel: 06-7988549 Fax: 06-7988530

 

 

Email:

 

mnizam@usim.edu.my

—–Original Message—–
From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>
To: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>, “Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” <mnizam@usim.edu.my>, “Prof. Dato’ Dr. Muhamad Muda” <mmuda@usim.edu.my>, “Prof Dr. Hj. Abdul Samat Musa” <samat@usim.edu.my>, “Izawati binti Wook” <izawati@usim.edu.my>
Date: Tue, 26 Aug 2008 11:45:53 +0800
Subject: Re: Visit to KDN

Really??? Well then the students are really truly either adab deficient & not interested to study cyber law. Anyway, I am teaching Cyber law while Pn Iza is teaching Consumer Law. Don’t involve Iza in this as she respects me as a COLLEAGUE!!!

 

—–Original Message—–
From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>
To: “Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” <mnizam@usim.edu.my>, “Prof. Dato’ Dr. Muhamad Muda” <mmuda@usim.edu.my>, “Prof Dr. Hj. Abdul Samat Musa” <samat@usim.edu.my>, “Izawati binti Wook” <izawati@usim.edu.my>
Date: Tue, 26 Aug 2008 11:44:57 +0800
Subject: Re: Visit to KDN

Really??? Well then the students are really truly either adab deficient & not interested to study cyber law. Anyway, I am teaching Cyber law while Pn Iza is teaching Consumer Law. Don’t invove Iza in this as she respects me as a COLLEAGUE!!!

—–Original Message—–
From: “Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” <mnizam@usim.edu.my>
To: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>,”Prof. Dato’ Dr. Muhamad Muda” <mmuda@usim.edu.my>,”Prof Dr. Hj. Abdul Samat Musa” <samat@usim.edu.my>,”Izawati binti Wook” <izawati@usim.edu.my>,”Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” <mnizam@usim.edu.my>
Date: Tue, 26 Aug 2008 11:27:55 +0800
Subject: Re: Visit to KDN

Salam.

Pn Yasmin,

The visit has been planned since the past two weeks. I have asked the students to inform you about the tentative visit much earlier (subject to final confirmation from the KPDN HEP (**not KDN)), but they did so quite late (Siti Aminah told me that they just informed you this week). Thats not again my fault as I have reminded that to inform you early.

It is nothing to do with ‘disrespect with your teaching hours as I have encroached upon your teaching hours.’

I have done other academic visits and ask students to first seek the oral permission of the lecturer before the Faculty can issue exemption letter. On Thursday, I am taking first year students to Parliament and the lecturers have been informed about the visit. Indeed, other lecturers have sought the same permission from me if the students are involved in their class activities. It is upon your discretion not to allow students to participate in the visit. I fully respect your decision. You can continue with your class and there is no argument about that matter. I have no problem with that. Your students will not be involved in the visit.

For your information, we just received about the confirmation of date and time last week. The date that we arranged is not solely mine or the students’. Its agreed upon the confirmation of the KPDN HEP. The visit is part of teaching activities for the course Cyber Law (Pn Izawati) and Intellectual Property Law.

Thank you very much.

MUHAMMAD NIZAM AWANG @ ALI

 

Faculty of Syariah & Law

 

 

Islamic Science University of Malaysia

 

 

Tel: 06-7988549 Fax: 06-7988530

 

 

Email:

 

mnizam@usim.edu.my

—–Original Message—–
From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” <yasminbahari@usim.edu.my>
To: “Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” <mnizam@usim.edu.my>
Date: Tue, 26 Aug 2008 10:48:37 +0800
Subject: Visit to KDN

Askm En Nizam

I was informed that you have arranged a visit to KDN tomorrow, involving my students, who happen to have a class with me from 8-10am. I am very much disappointed with your disrespect with my teaching hours as you have encroached upon my teaching hours. My class will continue as usual tomorrow. With respect to students who want to miss my class on the pretext of attending the visit, I will not accept the excuse letter purporting to have been issued by the Faculty.

Please note my disappointment with your disrespect of my teaching hours.

Malas pergi kelas: Apa susah kalau gagal, Dekan FSU pasti akan luluskan!!!!Kah!Kah!Kah!

— On Tue, 8/26/08, Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari wrote: From: Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari Subject: Fwd: LawatanKDN To: yasminnorhazleena@yahoo.com

Date: Tuesday, August 26, 2008, 11:01 AM

—–Original Message—– From: “Yasmin Norhazleena Bahari” To: amin86_wonbin@yahoo.com Cc: almymaya@gmail.com, atim_zahra@yahoo.com, adinda_yati@yahoo.com, ariezul_85@yahoo.com.my, nazz_cahaya1504@yahoo.com”Muhammad Nizam Awang @ Ali” ,”dekanfsu@usim.edu.my Mailing List” ,tnc.hea@usim.edu.my Mailing List

Date: Tue, 26 Aug 2008 10:58:48 +0800

Subject: LawatanKDN

Dear Siti Khairul Aminah If you refuse to attend my class tomorow from 8-10 am do not involve yr classmates who want to attend my class tomorrow. You have lied to me by saying that you are departing at 8am whereas the tentative programme states that students will only leave at 900am. My class tomorrow is on from 8-10am tomorrow.Pls be informed. www.usim.edu.my